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About Me Member Emotional Poet derek-of-spades19/Female/Australia Recent Activity Deviant for 4 Years
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Alone

Fri Oct 30, 2009, 4:20 AM
  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: All I Need by Within Temptation
  • Reading: Breaking Dawn by Stephenie Meyer
I am alone tonight. Everyone is busy with various things. I am so very lonely. I miss my fiance especially. Today was such a forced day, I forced myself to act happy and all that shit. Now I just feel like crying. I am just sitting here listening to sad songs. I know I should call a friend or something, talk to someone. But I really can't be bothered, there's no energy left inside me. I used it all up today. I think people underestimate the level of concentration required to not be miserable all the time. Trying to find that motivation is near impossible for me on some days. I literally couldn't get out of bed the other day. I spent all day sleeping, I just couldn't face the world.
I just wanted to spend time with my friend tonight. I wanted to go out and have a few drinks. I'm half tempted to just go out on my own, but where's the fun in that? Who am I going to talk to? Laugh with? No one. That's who. I can't even be bothered playing games on the Wii or anything. Maybe I should just go to bed and end my misery, that is until I wake up tomorrow morning and it starts all over again.
I suppose I better go see my psychiatrist soon.
And the place where they inserted the implanon is sooo itchy. I want to rip it out of my arm. But it's just itchy 'cause it's healing. Still annoying though.
Complain. Complain. Complain. I should just shut my hole. No one reads this bullshit anyway. And for good reason.
I want someone to be with me, to distract me from this pain. I want my Damo. *sigh* but he's not coming back until some god forsaken hour. He's gone fishing with my dad... They never ask me if I want to go anymore. Despite the fact that I used to love it. Is it because I'm a girl? *sigh* who cares anymore.
Well enough of this shit. I'm going to bed or something.

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I am the Black Kitty of night and revenge. I am the Mother Fox of nurturing and love. I am the Paling Dawn of new beginings. I am all these things and none of them.

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  • Current Residence: Kenwick, Western Australia
  • Interests: swimming, writing, nature and nerdy stuff.
  • Favourite movie: Resident Evil 3, The Last Unicorn
  • Favourite band or musician: Alice in Videoland
  • Favourite poet or writer: Anne Bishop
  • Operating System: Windows XP
  • Favourite game: Go-home Stay-home and final fantasy X-2
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Thank you very much for faving 'Blackhole Sun.' :)

I'm glad you liked it. ^^

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happy Christmas !!
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remember to close the curtains at night, i hear there is a stalker about :)

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thanks for fav ^^
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thanks for the watch :) , wow you are a poet
:iconsiv-brynn:
I love your poetry...

Thanks for the watch and the favs :heart:

I hope to see some more of your poems soon! *Watches you*
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OH! you mean hobbit? just some
one I know very well...

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